C.C.M.E.
Ever since I was a teenage girl, I’ve been pretty stubborn about the way that I dress. Maybe it was because as a girl, my mother really enjoyed dressing me up in all kinds of cute little outfits. I can’t blame her, I was a very cute kid. But in your teenage years, you really want to rebel against everything that is forced onto you, so you can finally start creating your own character, your own little persona. At the age of 18 years young after finishing school, I decided to try something new: making my own clothes. Because honestly, when I was shopping, I never found something I truly loved. There was always something off: the sleeves were too short, the shoulders had an ill fit, the color wasn’t what I liked or the material made me feel bad.
During my education, I was lucky to get a taste of several many crafts and arts: pattern design, textile design, sewing, modiste and fashion illustration. While learning about everything there is to know about how to make clothes, it soon became clear to me that the prices we pay in the stores for new clothes are often not fair at all. From that time on, I shifted my focus to thrift shopping. Despite the several many cringy reactions I got from my mother. “Why would you want to wear other people’s clothes?” Nonetheless, I stood my ground and kept on silently boycotting big fast fashion companies.
At the end of my fashion school experience, I came up with a concept for my last collection using all kinds of elements of my own life: the army background from my dad, the depression I went through and dancing. The whole picture was there and I seemed to have delivered something I didn’t think I was capable of. I was completely surprised by all the compliments and rewards I received that day. And it is still with a big feeling of pride that I look back on that.
At the same time, I’m wondering: why didn’t I continue on this momentum? I always seem to underestimate myself and it is still a daily practise to give myself the credit I need to make more magic happen.
Since that show, I’ve been doing so many things in life. I’ve traveled, I’ve studied, I’ve partied, I’ve worked. And studied. And worked. But all of this has kept me feeling quite empty. In the back of my head, I’ve always wanted to be my own boss. ‘Cause this bossy bitch always had the opinion that it could be better. In 2024, I finally took a leap into independence because I couldn’t ignore that voice anymore and I needed to see and experience for myself if this path in life would really give me the satisfaction I craved.
So here I am, presenting you a Colourful Closet of Mixed Emotions or if this is a mouthful for you, C.C.M.E. In this Closet, you’ll find many things I like: clothes, words, movement, feelings. Served with a cup of consciousness and a tablespoon of (bad) humour. With my company, I find my own way to express the multitude of universes I feel inside of me. With my company, I wish to serve you a way to find your own unique voice to express the multitude of universes there are inside of you.
Come to me when you need a revival of something old. Or when you feel the need to deconstruct something you’ve been carrying with you for a long time. Or when you want to give something precious the care and love that it deserves.
I would love to be of help wherever I can.
Until next time,
Love Numi
